To you Grandfather...

I wish to say sorry for not being able to be at your deathbed
I wish to say sorry for not being there at your funeral yesterday
I wish to say sorry for only have known you so little and met you few times in my life
I hope that you will rest in peace and may you be placed in a good haven

When my mum called me from Malacca to tell me that my grandfather has just passed away, the only word i could say was ok and 'Inna Lilah Wa Inna Lilah Hi Rah Ji Un' . Now, two days later, i feel sad that i did not feel sad for him then. I didn't know my grandfather well although i know he existed. He was the only grandparent that was still alive but he was staying in Malacca and I am here. I just feel numbed with too many things that is going in my life that i don't know what to feel. and although he's of blood relation, i just don't know what to feel of him passing away. But i keep seeing his face now...

Grandpa, I pray for your happiness over there.


We belong to Him and to Him we are returning.....